Tuesday, December 22, 2015
State of Mine
Just when I got over a crush
you came into my life.
Like the winter breeze
you froze all time before me.
Everyday, I awoke to your presence, your image, your laughter.
Was this yet another crush,
or had I found love once more.
Our interest matched;
your love for anime, our love for the simple designs.
Even during dinner at the pizza place,
we both ordered risotto even though you had placed your order before I arrived.
Even the drinks, your banana milkshake, and mine was black banana.
Was this not a sign? I wonder.
Was this a dream, a dream that i dreaded the end.
And the end or what seemed like it loomed in the distance - 20th dec marked the end of the trip.
I got anxious, I drew up plans in my mind.
I gave up staying with my close friend, I drifted towards you, or rather i swam.
Not this time, I thought, this time, I'm going for you.
Should I ask you out at the airport, but you left before I could.
All night I stared at the ceiling in the dark, thinking bout you.
Thinking about the night we spent watching Insidious together,
about the first moment you grabbed my arm
about the second, and I held you back, heart racing,
about the running man we watching after it all.
How could I forget sitting next to you at the back of the bus on the ride back to the airport,
with you so close to me, the three times you fell asleep, waking up the first two times due to the heat,
and the third due to the rain.
How can I forget your heavy breathing, how can ever forget you.
Our families so similar, my mum was like your dad
your chou chou u missed so much.
21 Dec, morning, I decided to take the dive,
to go for you.
But...you said it was too sudden, too fast, that we barely knew each other.
I had my reasons, I didn't want us to drift apart, the fear of losing you, made me so desperate.
I was no longer my cool self, love? or the search for love overwhelmed me.
But you were so kind, calling my haste cute,
I can only wish this isn't the end, or the start of awkwardness,
I will only wish that this friendship will blossom into something more
into a relationship where I can pamper you,
where you can be my girl,
where we can be together.
Tomorrow, another day,
hope there will be.
you came into my life.
Like the winter breeze
you froze all time before me.
Everyday, I awoke to your presence, your image, your laughter.
Was this yet another crush,
or had I found love once more.
Our interest matched;
your love for anime, our love for the simple designs.
Even during dinner at the pizza place,
we both ordered risotto even though you had placed your order before I arrived.
Even the drinks, your banana milkshake, and mine was black banana.
Was this not a sign? I wonder.
Was this a dream, a dream that i dreaded the end.
And the end or what seemed like it loomed in the distance - 20th dec marked the end of the trip.
I got anxious, I drew up plans in my mind.
I gave up staying with my close friend, I drifted towards you, or rather i swam.
Not this time, I thought, this time, I'm going for you.
Should I ask you out at the airport, but you left before I could.
All night I stared at the ceiling in the dark, thinking bout you.
Thinking about the night we spent watching Insidious together,
about the first moment you grabbed my arm
about the second, and I held you back, heart racing,
about the running man we watching after it all.
How could I forget sitting next to you at the back of the bus on the ride back to the airport,
with you so close to me, the three times you fell asleep, waking up the first two times due to the heat,
and the third due to the rain.
How can I forget your heavy breathing, how can ever forget you.
Our families so similar, my mum was like your dad
your chou chou u missed so much.
21 Dec, morning, I decided to take the dive,
to go for you.
But...you said it was too sudden, too fast, that we barely knew each other.
I had my reasons, I didn't want us to drift apart, the fear of losing you, made me so desperate.
I was no longer my cool self, love? or the search for love overwhelmed me.
But you were so kind, calling my haste cute,
I can only wish this isn't the end, or the start of awkwardness,
I will only wish that this friendship will blossom into something more
into a relationship where I can pamper you,
where you can be my girl,
where we can be together.
Tomorrow, another day,
hope there will be.
your love is like a shadow at 1:42 AM
0 said we can't be wrong together
0 said we can't be wrong together